ShabbatonSpring Regional was awesome this weekend. The program was great and the younger kids really got into it. I raked in massive amounts of awards. The youth commission Israel Scholarship and got inducted into Ben Tzion. I'm still really confused about how I feel afterwards though. I've been trying to sort out the bazillion emotions running through me right now and I think this is the best way to do it.
Sad- Leaving is hard. NCSY has been such a great experience for me. I've grown and changed so much and it was mostly because of NCSY and the people involved. I also feel like I haven't gained as much from recent NCSY experiences but thats partially my fault.
Happy- I'm really happy cause people were upset I was leaving. That may sound retarded but to know that people actually like you that much and will miss you that much is a nice feeling.
Accomplished- I know that what I've said and done have affected people. Like I said the kids were really into it. I actually knew everyone there and I think most of them will come back. The chapter has also gotten huge and I've been able to do that myself and overcome lots of obstacles in the way.
Pissed- Most of the people who changed me aren't there anymore and I wish they were. I don't know who I'm mad at, probably noone but I wish they still could have been there. I also did something really stupid which I shouldn't have and I'm mad at myself for that.
I have to drop a line to everyone who's been there for me along the way. I love all of you guys. I can't wait to graduate and move on but I'll never forget these times.